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I was in the psych ward for a month and a day. Now I’m in eating disorder inpatient for ed and depression. My friends and parents gave me an intervention and a nurse came out to my house to take me to the hospital for suicidal behavior. If I hadn’t have agreed, I would have been forced to go.
I gave up my matches, razors, bullets, permit to purchase a firearm card… Basically all my secrets I’ve kept extremely hidden for the past ten years exploded in front of everyone and now they all know everything. It’s beyond difficult and exposed-feeling.
I didn’t eat for a week at the hospital and then I restricted hard. I lost twenty pounds there. I only left my room for water for five days then they locked me out of my room for weeks. I had to start taking prozac and abilify. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder (severe, recurrent), anxiety, borderline personality disorder, eating disorder, and some ocd tendencies.
It was… interesting. I met a few friends there. I’ll write more later.
